1. First of all, I want people to enjoy my work
…and why not make this available to those who may enjoy it?
2. I want to inspire others to create
…and in order to free others up to do so, I have no shame in showing a bunch of my good, wonderful, bad, and ugly work. One of the core things that got me writing music in the first place was when I listened to various Elton John ‘filler songs’; songs that felt like they were created in the studio, just to fill up album space in a pleasant way. Somehow, hearing stuff he had created that clearly wasn’t his best, was liberating to me. It took the weight off making everything I did incredible – and ironically, I think that made me a better writer. Its very common, in any creative process, to stop and adjudicate ourselves mercilessly, to our own detriment. However, I’m a firm believer that sharing ourselves freely brings us all closer together, and allows us to see the brilliance in the pure act of creation itself – rather than just reveling in art we consider ‘brilliant’. I’d way rather leave people in awe of the act of creation itself, than in awe of art I’ve made that is considered worthwhile to a general populace. Not everything’s gonna be your best work, and I often find the garbage just as interesting as the gold.
By shining a light on the creative process through this Abravault, I intend to leave others fascinated by the bumpy, smooth, salty, tangy, varied journey that creativity really is – and excited to take the leap of producing a deeper degree of creativity in their own lives too, in whatever way that manifests. If one person gets for themselves the lid taken off their creativity from this – then this whole thing has been worthwhile to me.
3. Like everyone, I can be selfish
… and the only way to quench my ceaseless thirst of selfishness in a remotely constructive way, was to create this. Be honest with yourself, and I think you will also find you’ve got that same selfish, vain impulse too. If you are on social media in any capacity (Facebook, Twitter, Youtube etc), that is immediate evidence right there that you have the bug too. Its simply a part of being human. I find when I try to cut out a part of who I am, the rest of me starts to wither away with it – so why deny that I find myself interesting? However, I also won’t pretend I’m powerless about my self-absorbed tendencies either, and let them grow out of proportion. I work to keep them on a very tight leash, so they can be wielded to great purpose in the right situations, rather than becoming an uncontrollable a Kanye West-caliber detriment.
The somewhat fruitful things thing my vain, selfish side wants to get from The Abravault: ‘Money for my services’, and ‘Someone to use some of the music in here to make a number one hit, and for me to get some royalties from that’. So, money again. Basically, this is an extra form of financial support to continue doing things in the arts that I enjoy for a living. Now, the not-so fruitful things I sometimes find as my motivator in making ‘The Abravault’: ‘I’ve made a lot of stuff, and a bunch of it is brilliant – so, people need to know I’m brilliant & hardworking’, ‘I’m so busy, and therefore I’m awesome’. Not so appealing as motivating factors. I don’t like them either, I’m just being upfront that, as a human being, sometimes my mind has drifted in that direction. Its like how sometimes we eat potato chips, even though they’re not great for you. There’s a natural need in each person to entertain both the good, and bad in us. The trick is to entertain the ugly side as little as possible. The rest of the points listed on this page fuel me way more than this one.
4. I see it as a duty to keep organized
Especially when I’m in a field that seems to be designed against organization. The classic stereotype is that most people in the arts are disheveled eccentrics who can’t show up on time to anything, and don’t get much done in general. I was to squash that stereotype. I pride myself on personal integrity, and being the boss of my day. I learn why I was late if I’m late for something, and put in plans to ensure I’ll be on time in that case from now on. I schedule virtually everything, and actively work to only do things and agree to do things that empower me & the mark I want to leave in the world. Life is like a bicycle wheel – when a few of the spokes are out, it will function for a while – but eventually, the wheel’s gonna buckle. I’m actively looking for the spokes that are missing that I can keep putting back in. And one thing that’s been substantially out until now, is just organizing my past. This Abravault allows me to organize my past, so I can reference it, and make better sense of it. I find that to better design where you’re life is going, you want to know where you’re coming from.
Thank you for reading, and enjoy the vast & wonderful junkyard of gems that is – The Abravault!
– Taylor, March 2015